Sunday, November 19

19/11/06

// feeling :: weird
// prayer for :: tmr's exam


When I woke up, I sms-ed Dehua right away, asking how come he didnt call me regarding svc today. As I was sms-ing him, I stopped to think about, well, church, cell and everything.

Then God just asked me, "what are you fighting for?" He used to ask me this question in the past, but I always thought I was fighting for salvations.

I didnt get God's point yet, so He threw me more and more subtle hints and sometimes very obvious hints, like Ms Ong calling and saying it to my face with regards of a similar situation, and Catherine saying it to the cell.

But still I didnt get it! And now, no one had to prompt me. Well, God did, and I realised what He was trying to tell me. What am I fighting for?

Am I doing all these for selfish means or what? Am I doing this for God and the church or myself?

Oh geez, this is a startling fact for me to realise. :( God has shown me a lot of my weak points and the bad sides of my mentality. I guess He wants me to change for the better. And I will!

Thank You Holy Spirit for slapping it straight in my face at the correct moment! I will change for You I promise. But of course I will also need Your help :)

Saw Bryan at Attributes yesterday. When I saw his face change when he saw me, my heart hurt. GEEZ! HARDEN YOUR HEART!

Also saw Wendy with Alis and Ml in the MRT yesterday. She looked at me like she wanted to slap me =/

michi ]|[ 12:20